A Reflection on Crankiness and Weakness
Ever have one of those days where you feel like you just need an attitude adjustment to deal with the world? Boy I sure have. Most of my comes from lack of communication. I forget to tell people when something they do bothers me. I'm afraid it makes me look weak.
I have to learn to take ownership if how I feel and not be scared or self conscious of the feeling. Fear of offending people is also a problem I struggle with. Anyone else? Hiding my true feelings about certain things holds me (and honestly all of us) back.
I fear rejection too. So I'll keep all my real feelings bottled up and then when people can't magically read my mind, I become cranky with myself. Am I the only one who gets mad at themselves for bottling up something?
On the opposite end, I am also guilty of shouting out to the world when I feel down. Its a drawback to the social media that has engulfed our everyday lives. Let's post our bad day on Facebook that way everyone knows we're unhappy and ask us "What's wrong?"
I am a fearful, selfish person sometimes. There. I said it, my weakness. My forever flaw. I feel like I'm at an AA meeting. "Hello. My name is Chelsea and I am a fearful, selfish person."
Today's world is starting to remind me of Noah. We all are so absorbed in our own lives, fighting with each other, bullying, etc. Would I have been considered part of Noah's family to be saved or would I have been one of the "flesh" to perish?
Honestly, when I get into these crabby moods the Lord is not in my heart or even on my mind. I know that the Lord has promised never to flood again as in days of old, but its something that weighs on my mind after I pull out of these thoughts. Satan keeps knocking not only me, but all of us down with constant feelings of fear and selfishness.
My point, we all need to start having more confidence. Wear the outfit you're unsure of. Chances are you look better than you think. Do the thing you're scared to do (even if you're like me and need a wingman). It will be your salvation.
I can learn to become more self confident to crush my fear.
Stay tuned, keep praying, and God Bless.
I have to learn to take ownership if how I feel and not be scared or self conscious of the feeling. Fear of offending people is also a problem I struggle with. Anyone else? Hiding my true feelings about certain things holds me (and honestly all of us) back.
I fear rejection too. So I'll keep all my real feelings bottled up and then when people can't magically read my mind, I become cranky with myself. Am I the only one who gets mad at themselves for bottling up something?
On the opposite end, I am also guilty of shouting out to the world when I feel down. Its a drawback to the social media that has engulfed our everyday lives. Let's post our bad day on Facebook that way everyone knows we're unhappy and ask us "What's wrong?"
I am a fearful, selfish person sometimes. There. I said it, my weakness. My forever flaw. I feel like I'm at an AA meeting. "Hello. My name is Chelsea and I am a fearful, selfish person."
Today's world is starting to remind me of Noah. We all are so absorbed in our own lives, fighting with each other, bullying, etc. Would I have been considered part of Noah's family to be saved or would I have been one of the "flesh" to perish?
Honestly, when I get into these crabby moods the Lord is not in my heart or even on my mind. I know that the Lord has promised never to flood again as in days of old, but its something that weighs on my mind after I pull out of these thoughts. Satan keeps knocking not only me, but all of us down with constant feelings of fear and selfishness.
My point, we all need to start having more confidence. Wear the outfit you're unsure of. Chances are you look better than you think. Do the thing you're scared to do (even if you're like me and need a wingman). It will be your salvation.
I can learn to become more self confident to crush my fear.
Stay tuned, keep praying, and God Bless.
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